This Feeeeeeliiiiin'

Dear Diary,

                It is past midnight now but sleep eludes me; no, I’m not having troubles sleeping neither am I disturbed. I just want to stay awake and ponder on some few thoughts.

                I am just too excited to sleep not ‘coz I just won a million dollar jackpot but for the fact that I think no scratch that, I know that I’ve found the one – the girl that I want to spend the rest of my life with. How am I so sure? I don’t know myself but that feeling that you get when you know that you cannot be wrong on something, that you found it, that special something that you lay your hands on and you know it would be foolhardy to just let go. Yes, that feeling. I know it.

                I found her and I’m not about to let go – ne’er! I’ve loved once, twice and maybe even thrice and on each occasion, love dealt me a heavy blow. This time, I’ll love, I’m loving, I’ve loved and I finally get the moves – when love throws me a punch, I’ve learnt to block it by striking love back. Yes, when love fights, to survive, to become one. I’m in perfect unison with love; we found a c’mon ground.

                And dear diary, I just took a leap of faith. I don’t know what I was thinking but I just felt the timing was right; I’d to do this now. Everyone has to know who I’m in love with now – no gimmicks. A golden Fish, they say, has no hiding place. I couldn’t bear to conceal it anymore; that I’m in love and I want the whole world to take note.

                I’ll forever cherish this feeling, this moment. **yawns** now sleep beckons and once more, I get to sleep with this tingle in my heart and Banky W’s song comes to mind – would you be my lover – as much as I wanna be yours?